wHaT mAttEr tHe mOsT...

2th Jan 2006

It's a brand new day--2nd day of 2006.Yet I still feel very much like yesterday...shitty.

Before Jess left,we had breakfast at the kopitiam near by our place. While eating,we sort of talk about Ping. And she make a comment saying that I should fly with her team so that I can see more and perhaps understand Ping better.

I can sense there is something Jess trying to tell me. So I asked. And Jess was hinting me that Ping is very close with Ashleey,one of their team girl.But before further explain,she pull away from the topic and say something else.Now what?

Somehow,she gave in an example of a guy (without mentioning who) helping a girl carrying her "mama-san" bag with nothing inside except her wallet. I know immediately she is talking about Ping and Ashleey.True enough,she is telling what she saw in their previous Amsterdam flight. Jess said she just find it weird that a guy is carrying a girl "almost empty bag" when they are not a couple.

I am not not sure if there is any intention of Jess telling me these. But from what I know about Jess, she only say it when she felt it that way.A simply blunt person she is. Sp I am pretty sure at taht point of time,she does feel it's something uncommon between Ping and Ashleey. Well, having confidence in Ping,of coz I trustefd him. Yet, Jess emphasizing how attractive Ashleey is,I must admit it has bother me a little. But if there are really something between two of them, why didnt anything happen before Ping meet me? Jess said it might be becoz Ashleey is still attached ( though not really) to her boyfriend that holding Ping back...

Later that day, I went to work. And to my surprise,I found a MMC card in my box with 20 pre-recorded songs...

If there's anything that matter,it's how he treated me. Knowing him as an extra caring person, I know I gotto deal with him treating others as good as me or even better than me. But what matter the most is the position of me in his heart.