The right guy....

21st Oct 2006

Yesterday was a day that it would turn out to be the worst of my life...i thought. Since morning before I went to work, I was trying to tell myself: I have been through worse than this, I am going to be fine.

Jeanie message me and share alot with me. I suddenly felt ashamed that I was so focus on what I am going through and neglected people around me. These days have become all about me...I felt sorry for Jeanie as what she's going through. At first she told me it was jus flu and migrain but then she finally decide to tell me and it was actually brain tumour. It has been years since she had it. And it is an on and off thing. There are time,she felt okay. But there are also time she felt so lousy. Jess use to tell me about Jeanie, saying that she is a dirvocee. But I always take what Jeanie said as she call off the wedding after ROM. But the truth is his fiance actually pull off after Jeanie was dignose with brain tumour. No wonder she is always so afraid to commit to another relationship. But how could someone leave his wife when she is sick, moreover he has promise to be with you no matter sick or poor...he is your husband to be, the one who suppose to stay with you for the rest of your life...

There's a saying of the Chinese: Man are afraid they choose the wrong career; while woman are afraid if they choose the wrong guy. Being as "egoistic" as me, I wouldn't want to lie my future in a man's hand. However,I agree that how can "choosing a right guy" change your life....

Am I with the right guy....?