Long day....

19th Sept 2006

God...Schedule has been really tight these days. Has been sleeping less than 4 hour each and every day. Work, study and holiday during my birthday. I need a good rest....

Yesterday was a totally worn off day for me. Came back from work in the morning and without showering. (I know is unhygenic, but when you are tired and worn off, sleep is the up most important thing in your mind). So, I crash to the bed and caught a solid 3 hours nap. Although not long after I fall asleep, Ping's mother called me to ask if i had already gone down to the office to change my flight ticket. I was filled with guilt that I should go down as soon as possible, yet knowing that today will be a long day for me, I need to sleep now! 11am, got waken by the sms that Ping's mother sent me. I rushed to the toilet and take a quick shower and rushed out,hopefully I can get my ticket done before the lunch time. So, within half an hour, I am in the office already.

I managed to change my ticket, and to my surprise it only took me 10 minutes to do so. Efficient!!!Then with some time to spare, I had a quick lunch in the staff canteen. Had my favourite popiah and honey grapefruit juice. And proceed to town.

I was so tired and in the 1/2 hour mrt journey, I actually fallen asleep. Not very usual for me, as I dislike to sleep in the public. Then I went for my facial appointment for 3 hours. Fall asleep in between again. After my facial, I met Jess for dinner and happen that she actually meeting Kevin. So, 3 of us end up having dinner at cafe cartel.

Kevin is a nice guy and 3 of us have a great time togather. Suppose to go for my class after the meal, but Jess wanted me to join them for movie. Filled with tireness and what I want is only to sleep. Almost tempted to go movie with them coz i think i can sleep in the cinema. But I guess I have the guilt of not attending classes thinking that I will miss the next two weeks lectures, I better go. So in less then half n hour to spare. I rushed to class on time.

Although the last half n hour I can't really catch what he is talking about (too sleepy). But at least it's not a waste trip. Then as I was heading home, I met Xing down stair my house. He is waiting for Jess to message him as he've got something to pass to her. Jess promise to message him when she is back home. Knowing that Jess is already at home, I urge him to go up. But he refuse and ask me to pass the thing to her. Sensing that something is wrong, I told Xing Jess wanted to eat ( She called me ealier on) . Without hesistation, Xing offer to buy her supper. Because he is not familiar with the place, I offer to direct him. So we drove to Bedok North to take away chicken wings and dessert.

While we were waiting for the chicken wings to be ready, Jess message me and xing. Jess told Xing that she is not at home yet. And she told me Kevin is at home. Of coz what she don't know is, Xing is with me. So,fearing that Xing will find out, I ask Jess to ask Kevin to leave. My message sound fierce and scare Kevin off a little. He must be wondering how can a person be so nice in a second n the next moment she is so fierce. But then I don't care. What I fear more is,Xing will get hurt coz I knew he is a nice guy.

Anyway, when we were home. Kevin is already gone and Jess finally understand why I reacted that way in the message. Feeling touch and guilt, she told me she was crying talking to Xing over the phone yesterday.

Well, I sort of scolded her cause I felt she is making people feel hopeful yet don't want to commit. I said she is not ready in any serious relationship although she wants it very much.She is just still not ready for one yet...