PORTLAND, OREGON

6th Sept 2008- 12th Sept 2008 , went to Portland, Oregon to attend Ping's sister wedding. Will subsequently update more photos and tell you guys more about the trip ya...

we use darlie....hehe

Visit to the cheese factory...

Yes, I am your pilot of the day...

Blissful moment...

Askimo....

Taste the "air"

We are in "shade "

十年后...

有没有想过十年后的你，会是怎样？
小时候，我以为我是不会离开家里的。。。然后，我的一个补习老师指着我脚趾上的痣说：“你搞不好回到处走哦。。。”
1999年，15 岁的我第一次正式出国。 一个人从马来西亚出发，在新加坡转机， 到日本广岛去。懵懵懂懂的我，是如何办到的？我也不知道。。。
自从那次以后，我变得勇敢。于是千方百计，想要离开。
2004年，19 岁的我终于如愿以偿， 离开了家里。我也如我老师说得到处流浪。只是我没想到，自己原来那么恋家。我的心由始至终， 都没离开过。
十年后的我， 34岁。会在另一片土地上，拥有自己的家吗？会有自己的孩子，疼爱自己的人？
你们的十年又会是怎样呢？

头发乱七八糟地。。。

很生气我的发型师把我的头发剪得乱七八糟。。。
最难过的是我那留了好久的及腰长发，原本想待我想到要烫什么发型后再做点改变。结果。。。
既然不能像小孩子那样哭泣，我唯有不断埋怨。
‘为什么那么相信他？’
‘为什么要去剪头发’
‘明明告诉他说我只要修剪一点点，并保留长度。。。他是听不懂人话哦？’
事情到了这种地步， 我除了难过也没有别的办法了。。。不过我是不会再让他碰我的头发!!!!!!!

振作

又荒废了一段日子没写。。。
搬家，工作和休息成了我生活的重心。单纯又快乐。
我承认天生怠慢， 于是得过且过地过日子。然而矛盾的是，好胜的我却不允许自己那么满足于现状。于是被一种无名的内疚感袭击，难过。
告诉自己不可以这样下去，因为失败将是必然的。
必须振作起来，重新找回当初开始的目的，找回目标。
就算这样想，也足以让我沮丧不已。。。

男人VS女人

Chris sent me somethig interesting...

男人必知：
（1）别以为女人是你肚子里的蛔虫，你爱不爱她，你什么都不说，什么也不做，她怎么会知道？
（2）别在女人撒娇的时候冷落她，除非她在你心中已经不重要了。
（3）性关系对女人来说，远远没有男人想得那么重要。
（4）当你已经不能察觉她的外观改变， 或许她真的不重要了。
（5）女人也有自尊。
（6）她静默时，别问她为什么，只需给她一个拥抱。
（7）女人对于爱情的需要和男人对于性的需要是一样多，所以不要指责她对与爱情的追求是奢侈的。
（8）如果女人让你感觉疲惫，或许你已经放弃了。。。

Little red monster...

Waiting for my little red monster...
I must be patient...4 more days...says doggy...
Puppy eating dog food, wait and wait and wait....

Ring

Bought myself a ring yesterday...Ha

Reason when one ask: to cover the scar on my minddle finger

Actual reason: I want something on my fingers

So i regard this as my lucky charm. Just to give myself a reason to be happy and felt lucky, though the fact that I do not have a lasy like fingers do upset me a little...I still feel luky.

Waiting for my red monster to come back!!!! Can't wait!

无题

偶尔我会想起
你对我的好
那我负担不起的好

偶尔我也想对你好
只是这样的好
你同样也承受不起

这样就好
偶尔的问候
永远的祝福
我们当一辈子的朋友

循环

Wayne说人永远不可能改变。现在，我似乎可以了解他的意思。尽管他多想为你改变，可是事情终究是不可能。 感觉就像一种循环， 不断地兜圈子。好累。。。

我想证明给他看，爱一个人， 你真的可以为他做很多很多事情。我想为他做很多很多，直到我的心死了， 那么一切就可以结束。

到底是我不知足，还是根本我要的他给不起？认识我们的人会说， 你把事情想得太严重了。 或许吧。。。

脆弱

承认自己脆弱
看报纸会哭
看电视会哭
听音乐会哭
就连说起你都会哭

离开我的这几天
你都不想我吗？

你说很乱
脑里有很多问号
难道对于我们之间
你没有一件确定的事情吗

是我的错？

平说是因为我的关系。。。

So...fats or health?

"It is scientific proven that fats at the bottom are good fats. It's what keep a person healthy"

"Huh? I don't want that to be the reason of being healthy!"

"Well, pear-shape woman are healthier than other body type."

"Now I know why African women are so strong and healthy! But...I DON'T WANT!!!!"

Just a song...

只有回忆 <蝴蝶飞> 主题曲
作曲: Guy Zerafa Dave Klotz
作词:林夕

总是在 消失了才看个明白
手一松 心就会期待

总是在 静下来心跳.如钟摆
才无处可逃 要对自己坦白

快乐总存放于未来
忘记了抚摸现在

遗憾在 念念不忘受过伤害
才怀疑 那是因为爱

遗憾在 失去了沉默的关怀
才醒悟感情原来无需表白

遗憾在 发生过的不容修改
眼泪是 为过去还债

最遗憾再 爱总是来不及明白
只有回忆能证明最爱何在

快乐总存放于未来
忘记了抚摸现在

可惜在 要把一切放下来
才感到 曾经存在

纠缠时 眼睛睁不开
清醒时 只有无奈

Listen vs. Hearing....

I am so pissed today. Had a hard time at work and came home wanting so much to tell PingEn about what had happen. But he is not listening!!!! I mean, of cause he heard me. But he is just simply not listening. Because while I was trying to explain what happen, he told me about what would he do in an irrelevent situation. Hello....ARE YOU THERE?

Fnd it so hard to talk to him about work. Although we work in a a same environment, he just don't seem to understand form my point of view.I am not asking for any advice and you need not relate any irrelevant info. Why can't you just listen????

A good cat should not block...

So, here goes the saying "好狗不挡路". But really I think it should be cat now...

What happen was PingEn and I were on our way to the famous BLK 85 for my favourite dessert. Then as we were walking there, there is this big fat cat sitting at the side of the road. I suspect she is pregnant...but anyway...

Then as we were walking past her, she suddenly walk in front of us and calmly sit down blocking our way to proceed. Now, that's weird. As we tried to walk past her, she would stand up and block us from moving. This doesnt happen just once, but a few times, as if she deliberately doing it. I know this sound weird, but when you see a "fat" cat, with her big grey eyes staring at you and not allowing you to past. That's scary!!!

I thought I could see her smilling and say :" 这就是闯进我地盘的后果!!!" . Then PingEn make a attempt to step forward causing a "slap" sound. That's when she would move and let us through.

PingEn later said: " What she want from us? Food?". Well, I hope it's just food she wants...

Haha...a big ghostly isn't it? Well, who knows? Could be a good start of a horror story plot. Well, cat in my mind is always a bit "spiritual" kind of animal...so I can't help but thinking at that direction...

BEWARE: DID YOU SEE A FAT BROWN CAT AROUND YOUR HOUSE....?=P

PS, I Love You...

Yupe so here I am reading Cecelia Ahern's novel. Her first and newest one the big screen. I swear I didn't first notice the movie before I seen the novel. In fact I first known about this book when I was back in Malaysia a couple of months back and saw it in the bookstore. Glanced through the the short synopsis and thought it is interesting to read. Have decided to get it when I am back in Singapore. For some reason, books in Malaysia is more expensive then in Singapore.

This book is great. Never a book make me so sad and cry every time Holly ( the main character) read the envelope from her late husband. I agreed with the book cover: " Everyone needs a guardian angel. " Who is better than the one you loved most?

So now I am a big fan of Cecelia Ahern...Glancing her other book and find it equally interesting. New "toy" for me for next two months...

Speak up!

Yes...I have said it.

For weeks...I have been stuggling to speak up. Wanting so much to tell yet afraid to hurt.
Surely he felt it. I know. But he just wouldn't say it.
So the more he remain silent, the more frustraited I am. I certainly doesnt help when my friend was complaining about her boyfriend and almost break down in tears. Am mine any better? Somehow the image of her boyfriend overlap with mine. God, give me a break!

So, I have told him. Pleading him to tell me what is he really thinking. No more Mr. Nice Guy! Throw me your tantrum if you want. Tell me you are as irritate as I am . I want nothing buut the truth...Please...

当下

昨晚 我看得出你的不舍
可是你还是离开
如果我挽留
你大概也会留下吧？
只是我没有
因为我累了
只有我需要你而你不需要我

在一起的时间太短
所以这样就好
见面的时候开开心心

好像习惯了
我把自己分成两半
一个简单开心的自己
一个面对现实的自己
出乎意料地我调适得很好

以前我会往很远很远的地方看
现在我只在乎当下

心有灵犀

不知大家相信“心灵感应”这一回事呢？

简单来说，就是就算没有说出口，没有见到面，距离很遥远，可是就是能够奇迹似地感应到对方。

可以说是“心有灵犀”，或者是“心灵相通”？

这样的事情常常发生在我身上哦！感觉低落的时候，收到了福集的问候。就如他说的：“你此刻是不是很温暖呢？”对，很温暖。心，很暖。

刚刚正在想：“再不打来，我就要生气了！”。突然，电话响了。是平。听到渴望的声音，感觉就很精神！

现在想想，这样的事情常常发生在我身上。冥冥中，有一种被守护着的感觉。哈！

一时冲动

今天一整天闷在家里K书，感觉快要窒息了。

看着闷闷的天气，自己的心情也调入了谷地。于是决定去修一修头发，或许换个新发型还是怎样。。。

基本上是不想剪短，因为留了那么久，感觉很可惜。而且这是之从我小学六年级后到现在，唯一一次留那么长。

和发型师聊了聊，于是决定保留长度，只作个修剪。改变的就只有留海吧？她说小小的留海对整体是有很大的改变的。

你们说呢？

不过她在剪下那7寸留海时，我的心着实痛了一下。啊。。。一时冲动的决定，会是灾难的开始吗？算了，已经回不了头了。

在剪头发的同时读着杂志，上面说：剪头发，改变形象，对于改变心情是很有帮助的，会有焕然一新的感觉。

心情忧郁吗？去剪个头发吧？