One should stay rational or be more sentimental while in love? Some says follow your heart;another says think with your brain! Well, it has no definate rule obviously. Sometimes it just happen even you are yet to find out what actually have happened.When love comes or when we think love has come, we live the moment that makes us do silly decision. If you are lucky, the decision might turn out to be the right one. Unfortunately, it can turn out to be a disaster for you and others.
So, what make us think we are in love? Is it the chemistry between man and woman? Or is it just a kinda feeling? Ha! How many of us can be certain of love? How many of us can say out loud that we are in love? Or is that a possibility that we wake up one day and suddenly this feeling of love just disappear?Well, well, well, till I am in love again, the question is yet to be answer...Cheers!
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
I mEaNt wHaT I wRoTe...
15th June 2005, 9:13a.m
Jess said writing blogs= writing diary. Is like exposing your life to the public.She gave an example of a woman posting the sex diary online, insightful! Well, I didn't argue with her. Coz I am a blogger myself. However, is not that I wanna expose my life to others, but it's more of expressing feeling..not to a particular person,not to gain attention, nor do I expect anyone to read it or respond to it. It simply a way I tidy up my mind where there so much emotions and thoughts flowing. I have always prefer writting than talking...Been writting diary since I was 10? Writting is less harmful and more rational....i think! ha! Anyway,every blogger has his/her own reason or purpose blogging...maybe she hope "the one" can read it? maybe he trying to reach out somewhere...maybe...maybe...
Ones can say things that they dun mean it, irresponsible,hurtful...i have done it many time myself. But writing, you just gotto be honest to yourself. Writing stays, it leave track, so whatever you wrote, you gotto mean it!
Jess told me Eeleen and Damon wrote smthing in their blogs that I should take a look. So,I did. Eeleen dear, you piggy is real cute. But hmm...does it look like...hmm...haha, I am not gonna say it! :P
And for Damon's blogs...trying to read btw the lines, but all I see is uncertainty...I wonder why. Jess ask me not to be prejustice, it gave me a little impact, coz prejustice is smthing I try not to be...never know I have been bahaving that way...She said Damon and I are similar ppl that I should try to know him better. Haha...if he and I is similar ppl, I guess I better don't get myself into trouble as I am an enough trouble for myself!
Curiosity? U bet...but not when I know it leads only to troubles. A smart choice,isn't it? *grin*
Jess said writing blogs= writing diary. Is like exposing your life to the public.She gave an example of a woman posting the sex diary online, insightful! Well, I didn't argue with her. Coz I am a blogger myself. However, is not that I wanna expose my life to others, but it's more of expressing feeling..not to a particular person,not to gain attention, nor do I expect anyone to read it or respond to it. It simply a way I tidy up my mind where there so much emotions and thoughts flowing. I have always prefer writting than talking...Been writting diary since I was 10? Writting is less harmful and more rational....i think! ha! Anyway,every blogger has his/her own reason or purpose blogging...maybe she hope "the one" can read it? maybe he trying to reach out somewhere...maybe...maybe...
Ones can say things that they dun mean it, irresponsible,hurtful...i have done it many time myself. But writing, you just gotto be honest to yourself. Writing stays, it leave track, so whatever you wrote, you gotto mean it!
Jess told me Eeleen and Damon wrote smthing in their blogs that I should take a look. So,I did. Eeleen dear, you piggy is real cute. But hmm...does it look like...hmm...haha, I am not gonna say it! :P
And for Damon's blogs...trying to read btw the lines, but all I see is uncertainty...I wonder why. Jess ask me not to be prejustice, it gave me a little impact, coz prejustice is smthing I try not to be...never know I have been bahaving that way...She said Damon and I are similar ppl that I should try to know him better. Haha...if he and I is similar ppl, I guess I better don't get myself into trouble as I am an enough trouble for myself!
Curiosity? U bet...but not when I know it leads only to troubles. A smart choice,isn't it? *grin*
Friday, June 10, 2005
wOmAn,tHe MoSt DaNgErOuS SpIcIeS EvEr WaLkEd oN eArtH...
Suppose to be attending a react workshop,regarding some self defence skills. Then it turns out to be a forum titled "difference between man and woman" .Conclusion? Woman is the most dangerous species ever walk on earth according to my instructor who happen to be a guy.*grin*
He started up by saying:"I see no reason why u girls need to attend this class,coz when it comes to violent or dangerous, u gals are the most dangerous species ever walk on earth!" haha...
According to Aaron (my instructor's name), man has born with a disease that make them suffering for their entire life. Name of the disease...EGO. *Well,nonsence...some woman are quite egolistic as well.*Nope,not for woman.Woman might have this alike behavior called "pride" but never an "ego".Because of ones ego, man live hard to fulfilled social expectation. And ironically, social is make up of man.*yeah,blame woman,give birth of man".Preciselly, that's what make woman the most evil of all. *enough, totall nonsence!*
He then gave us example. Let said in a pub, two man happen to be good friends are fighting over a woman, the two man will shout and start hitting each other but after a while, they will hug at each other and cry: This is my pal, man! They will then go and have a drink,leaving the whole thing aside.What happen if two woman who are best friends fighting over a man? They will fight, curse and swear.End of the story? No...the hatred will lead on for generation. Haha...imagining two kids fighting and one of them shout: I am not gonna talk to you, my grandma says ur grandma is a sXXX!
Alright, I get it now. Woman is just simply more unwilling to forgive compare to man. So what? Interesting,but that doesn't make woman evil. It is individual character that caused what is happening. Isn't it? And what have man ego gotto do with this?Well, too much of phylosophy, let get on to the class.
In the end of the class, I start to understand what Aaron meant by "woman's evilness". I must admit, looking at some of them praticing the defencing skills, these woman are somehow a hidden tigress. Perhaps he is right, woman might be the most dangerous species ever walk on earth. Today, he might just have activated some of our hidden potential. I wonder is mine activated as well...hmm...we'll see!
*to be continued...*
He started up by saying:"I see no reason why u girls need to attend this class,coz when it comes to violent or dangerous, u gals are the most dangerous species ever walk on earth!" haha...
According to Aaron (my instructor's name), man has born with a disease that make them suffering for their entire life. Name of the disease...EGO. *Well,nonsence...some woman are quite egolistic as well.*Nope,not for woman.Woman might have this alike behavior called "pride" but never an "ego".Because of ones ego, man live hard to fulfilled social expectation. And ironically, social is make up of man.*yeah,blame woman,give birth of man".Preciselly, that's what make woman the most evil of all. *enough, totall nonsence!*
He then gave us example. Let said in a pub, two man happen to be good friends are fighting over a woman, the two man will shout and start hitting each other but after a while, they will hug at each other and cry: This is my pal, man! They will then go and have a drink,leaving the whole thing aside.What happen if two woman who are best friends fighting over a man? They will fight, curse and swear.End of the story? No...the hatred will lead on for generation. Haha...imagining two kids fighting and one of them shout: I am not gonna talk to you, my grandma says ur grandma is a sXXX!
Alright, I get it now. Woman is just simply more unwilling to forgive compare to man. So what? Interesting,but that doesn't make woman evil. It is individual character that caused what is happening. Isn't it? And what have man ego gotto do with this?Well, too much of phylosophy, let get on to the class.
In the end of the class, I start to understand what Aaron meant by "woman's evilness". I must admit, looking at some of them praticing the defencing skills, these woman are somehow a hidden tigress. Perhaps he is right, woman might be the most dangerous species ever walk on earth. Today, he might just have activated some of our hidden potential. I wonder is mine activated as well...hmm...we'll see!
*to be continued...*
Thursday, June 09, 2005
cOz i CaRe...
I know I've been acted quite strangely. Is actually none of my business. Why should I be angry or what? I guess is simply I care...for that particular person. She is my first close friend since I came to S'pore. From the very beginning, we have very different personality and doesn't find any common interest in each other.Then, as time goes by, fate have make us closer.And despite all the differences,we have develop an understanding to each other. Is weird isn't it?
I treasured the friendship very much and just don't want it being affected by something which have nothing to do with me actually. Trying to tell myself to stay away, but can't help simply becoz i care...
I care if she ever be happy...i care if she will ever get hurt...i care if she met the right one...i care everything about her...
I treasured the friendship very much and just don't want it being affected by something which have nothing to do with me actually. Trying to tell myself to stay away, but can't help simply becoz i care...
I care if she ever be happy...i care if she will ever get hurt...i care if she met the right one...i care everything about her...
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Total Disaster...
08th June 2005, 8:59a.m.
How a good day turn out to be total disaster,I wonder...
It's suppose to be a unusual good day to me, as I am feeling really in my tip-top mood.Then, in the end of the day, it's disaster!
Yes, I went for the Aikido class, and thing is stil going alright. I have fun in the class, and really enjoy myself sweating like a cow, it has been long long time...Then after the class, I went to town to join Jesslyn for dinner.Before that, I went to kinokuniya to take a look, and got myself a few books...GREAT!!!
Dinner time,after taken 20 minutes to decide where we wanna eat, we have decided to have our dinner and coffee club.Jess's two friends,Damon and Niel came over to join us. Suppose to meet up at 8p.m. but they are late,and when they are here, we have half way almost finishing our meal. Well, Damon gave us an excuse saying this is the "singaporean style"...total bullshit!
Craping and having a terrible meal, I start to think that it is a better idea to head home after this. Then Annie called asking us to join her at Balacava. Well, she's the birthday girl, what to do?
At Balacava, crowded as usual. I just can't find myself focusing. I know this sound like a kid, but is really my sleeping time.Plus I have the whole day working out,it's really make me getting tired now. We went inside instead of staying outside where Annie and her friends seated becoz it's real humid outside. Damon claimed that his friends have seats inside,so we went in to join them. After being introduce to his friends...i dunno how many, and couldnt remember any of their name. Damon got me and jess a drink. At first I told him we wanted fruit punch, and he gave us this look :"what? u come to balacava for a fruit punch?" Telling him Jess couldnt drink becoz of her skin and me don't feel like drinking certainly doesnt satisfied him. Alright then, Jess decided on her favourite drink, lychee martini,and I...a beer! *sign*
So, now we have drink and seem like inside there isn't any seat as well, we decided to head back to Annie's table. So, outside we crap again. Can't really recall what we really talk about, must full of crap then. The atmosphere get a little tensed up. During that, Damon and Neil keep teasing on me taking ages to finish the beer.Told you I dun wanna drink. Anyway, they drank alot, not that the drink is tasty, I wonder why they do that.They are having "fun" i guess...
Eeleen being just touched down from Sydney came over to join us. Ofcoz her intention is not me or jess...haha...She is extreamly gorgeous tonight. But girl, you are drinking too fast. Fear that she will get drunk, we slow her down and she keep assuring us that she won't easily get drunk...ya right girl! Not with your empty stomach!
So, our conversation lead to noway, and things getting worse. First, I accidentally spill jess fruit punch on damon. Lucky he is not angry by then.Or...is he angry? I dunno! Can't really tell from surface. He always had this deep thought look although he can be smiling but he jst seem so bothered all the time. Then, we start talking bout nonsense and drag on till 1a.m.
Damon and Neil wanted to go Devil's Bar and keep pursuing us to go with them. But none of seem to be interested. Jess got a little pissed of with Damon of the way he drink.
Atmosphere real tensed. At last, we went for supper instead. So, at supper place (simpang bedok).Knowing that jess is not feeling happy, Damon jst keep smiling. Me being between them feeling extremely uncomfortable. Trying to makes things right, but I seem to lost my temper as well in the end. Reason? I dun know why...
So, after the supper, we all head home. And I feeling miserably depressed...
A good day ended with disaster.
How a good day turn out to be total disaster,I wonder...
It's suppose to be a unusual good day to me, as I am feeling really in my tip-top mood.Then, in the end of the day, it's disaster!
Yes, I went for the Aikido class, and thing is stil going alright. I have fun in the class, and really enjoy myself sweating like a cow, it has been long long time...Then after the class, I went to town to join Jesslyn for dinner.Before that, I went to kinokuniya to take a look, and got myself a few books...GREAT!!!
Dinner time,after taken 20 minutes to decide where we wanna eat, we have decided to have our dinner and coffee club.Jess's two friends,Damon and Niel came over to join us. Suppose to meet up at 8p.m. but they are late,and when they are here, we have half way almost finishing our meal. Well, Damon gave us an excuse saying this is the "singaporean style"...total bullshit!
Craping and having a terrible meal, I start to think that it is a better idea to head home after this. Then Annie called asking us to join her at Balacava. Well, she's the birthday girl, what to do?
At Balacava, crowded as usual. I just can't find myself focusing. I know this sound like a kid, but is really my sleeping time.Plus I have the whole day working out,it's really make me getting tired now. We went inside instead of staying outside where Annie and her friends seated becoz it's real humid outside. Damon claimed that his friends have seats inside,so we went in to join them. After being introduce to his friends...i dunno how many, and couldnt remember any of their name. Damon got me and jess a drink. At first I told him we wanted fruit punch, and he gave us this look :"what? u come to balacava for a fruit punch?" Telling him Jess couldnt drink becoz of her skin and me don't feel like drinking certainly doesnt satisfied him. Alright then, Jess decided on her favourite drink, lychee martini,and I...a beer! *sign*
So, now we have drink and seem like inside there isn't any seat as well, we decided to head back to Annie's table. So, outside we crap again. Can't really recall what we really talk about, must full of crap then. The atmosphere get a little tensed up. During that, Damon and Neil keep teasing on me taking ages to finish the beer.Told you I dun wanna drink. Anyway, they drank alot, not that the drink is tasty, I wonder why they do that.They are having "fun" i guess...
Eeleen being just touched down from Sydney came over to join us. Ofcoz her intention is not me or jess...haha...She is extreamly gorgeous tonight. But girl, you are drinking too fast. Fear that she will get drunk, we slow her down and she keep assuring us that she won't easily get drunk...ya right girl! Not with your empty stomach!
So, our conversation lead to noway, and things getting worse. First, I accidentally spill jess fruit punch on damon. Lucky he is not angry by then.Or...is he angry? I dunno! Can't really tell from surface. He always had this deep thought look although he can be smiling but he jst seem so bothered all the time. Then, we start talking bout nonsense and drag on till 1a.m.
Damon and Neil wanted to go Devil's Bar and keep pursuing us to go with them. But none of seem to be interested. Jess got a little pissed of with Damon of the way he drink.
Atmosphere real tensed. At last, we went for supper instead. So, at supper place (simpang bedok).Knowing that jess is not feeling happy, Damon jst keep smiling. Me being between them feeling extremely uncomfortable. Trying to makes things right, but I seem to lost my temper as well in the end. Reason? I dun know why...
So, after the supper, we all head home. And I feeling miserably depressed...
A good day ended with disaster.
hAppY dAy!!!
07th June 2005,9:50a.m.
A happy morning seems like it. Have a good night sleep is the right kick to start a day...what's more is a delicious and nutritious breakfast? Well,except for the caffeine *grin*
Why am I so happy today? Even through the phone,my mother can sense that I am in a extraordinary good mood. Strange? Can it be the caffeine dose? But I thought i have already been immune of it since I was three? How bout the sms I got from my dear girl? Well,Jess always sms me when she came back.Or, I am excited of the Aikido class that I am gonna attend this afternoon? Ha!Maybe...
Whatever it is,is great to feel that you are expecting something. For example,coming back from a long flight,expecting your loved one to wait for you at the airport? Or, you just got a date from the person you wish very much to meet,expecting to meet her/him for a movie. Maybe you have been craving for chili crab the whole week and you've finally got a "kaki" to eat with,let say tonight??? Uncle Roy,are you reading this??
A happy morning seems like it. Have a good night sleep is the right kick to start a day...what's more is a delicious and nutritious breakfast? Well,except for the caffeine *grin*
Why am I so happy today? Even through the phone,my mother can sense that I am in a extraordinary good mood. Strange? Can it be the caffeine dose? But I thought i have already been immune of it since I was three? How bout the sms I got from my dear girl? Well,Jess always sms me when she came back.Or, I am excited of the Aikido class that I am gonna attend this afternoon? Ha!Maybe...
Whatever it is,is great to feel that you are expecting something. For example,coming back from a long flight,expecting your loved one to wait for you at the airport? Or, you just got a date from the person you wish very much to meet,expecting to meet her/him for a movie. Maybe you have been craving for chili crab the whole week and you've finally got a "kaki" to eat with,let say tonight??? Uncle Roy,are you reading this??
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