Kazoku mitai...

27th August 2006

After work, Ping's father came to pick me up. Was so tired after 12 hours of work, all I wanted is someone to welcome me home... And uncle did...with that kind of warm smile that I can only find in my family.

As he was driving me home, as we were talking, suddenly (I wonder how actually) he asked did Ping ever tell me about why he wanna pursue his study to US.

*Yes, he said it's your dream*
*That's not the full answer...*
*.......*
*Has Ping ever mention to you my medical condition?*
*Ya...*
*Actually I had my artery 50% blocked....If I don't take care of myself,I will end up like my father.He was paralysed and my mother has to take care of him for 15 years. It's a emotional journey. If I had a stroke and I will be a burden to my wife and Ping. The only way to save my life is keep on working. I can't stop. That's the reason I choose to study at this point of time. If I stay in S'pore, the most I can work is for another few years. I rather keep on moving until I get heart attack and die right away...*
I am speechless...total speechless. I never thought uncle has thought so much. And what he thinks is all for the best benefit of everyone.
*people might said that : you are so selfish! But they don't know the actual reason why I am doing this. So, I just keep quiet and grip on...*
*Have you told Ping about this before?*
*I did talk to him about it. But maybe he didn't think I am serious...or he thought that I was joking.*
I am sure Ping doesn't think that way. I am sure Ping know what you meant. I am sure...I didn't say out...
*As far as I know, Ping has been very supportive to you.*
*I know they are very supportive. But maybe they haven't feel it yet. That's why I would like to ask you for a favour,you and Ping to spend more time with my wife when I am away.*
* I know. Me and Ping was talking about it too...*
* In fact I actually propose to Ping for you to stay at my place, the other room. It's good for you too, since our place is nearer to SIM where you studying.*
*Yupe, I understand. In term of location, it's true. But I got many more to consider, like my housemate. And actually my mother doesn't agree with me staying at your place either coz she felt that is not right...*
*coz you and Ping are not marry yet.*
* Sort of...but I guess I will stay over at your place more often now, for example after my class...Bishan Chalet...*

Uncle smiled.

Such conversation show something. Uncle does treat me like a family. The fact that he felt Ping is really serious about our relationship put him to open up to me. I am gladful, that he is willing to share....

I am must be a genius!

11th August 2006

Once in a while you just need to be a little "thick skin", a little bit " over-confident"...hehehe...That's how I felt after attempting this "Vegetarian Cha Bee Hoon"!!! I must say there is some "talent" in me...hahaha! Gam-Ba-de-Ne!

The Time Traveller's Wife

07 August 2006

Was reading "The Time Traveller's Wife" on my way from KLIA to the city. Has been telling people this is a good book but don't seem to be able to describe it. It's about this guy who has the ability to travel to the past and future. In another word, he is a time traveller. However he can't choose when or where to travel to. He has total no control in this ability and whenever he time-travel, he can't bring anything with him. This is a very odd situation and most of the time cause him in danger eventually caused his death. Sad story...Not a smart choice to read in public especially you can't held your tears....

iT's NoT tHe diStAncE iSSuE....

02 August 2006

Ok..time for confession. About what I said about yesterday, about doing a little experiment on Ping. What I have decided to do is, not messaging Ping and see how long it takes for him to remember of me and text me. I sort of realiase that he doesn't initiate messaging me. Most of the time he "REPLY" my message. So I really wonder how long would it take for my dear to "remember" me? Hahah...what a funny way to say it. Result: I gave up! Just a few hour after I wrote the post. He message me and ask me if I take any bird nest and he bought something for my mum. Well, perhaps who is "remember" was my mum.hahah...Anyway, he is such a sweet guy... And all I can say is that distance might not be the big issue here. The biggest issue is the fact that I couldn't see him, hear him and hold him....that's hurt.

I never know that I could be so "cheesy"? Well, regarding myself a total independent woman. I can eat by myself in the public, go shopping myself, do almost everything by myself. Yet, the feeling of not having Ping by myself just isn't what I like to feel.

There's this chinese song by Jiang Mei Qi ( a taiwanese singer). It's call " Dear, why aren't you here with me?".

Dear, why aren't you here with me?

How much time do we have that we could waste?

No matter how sweet is the calling

How comforting is the faxing

It's just can't compare having you by my side

I guess it's just part of life. You need to get use to being apart from your love one...Learning that being alone doesn't mean that no one is there...

DoEs DiStAnCe MaKes LoVe FoNder?

1st Aug 2006

I felt like I am away for so long... In fact it has only been 3 days. Ha! Some how I think Ping is adapting better than I am, despite he is the one who keep saying 19 days is unbearable. I guess I am the one who is going nuts.

Long distance relationship never work for me. And although I and Ping is not like we are staying apart or something. But I guess it's also consider some sort of "long distance" relationship. It just won't do it for me!!!

Is either he have so much "faith" on me. Or he is just simply thinks that everything goes his way. Sometime I wish I have his "believe"...So, I shall do a little experience here...on Ping, see what's the outcome. Till then....=P