This is reality...

I am dying to talk to somebody. Is in a moment like this, I felt sad…

I am “force” to take responsibility into something that not fully my responsibility. Is sort of like the time when I am working with my boss and he sort of blame it to me when a customer complaint. I fear that this time it might be another just another time…but then is different. At least put into comparison, my boss is far better than this guy!

He was so stressed over the problem and he simply throw tantrum to customer and colleagues and I am just waiting…I know…don’t ask me why. When it comes to this human dark side of “dirty” thinking, I realized that I know exactly what he is up to. Is like watching a movie character, performing life show in front of you. Then slowly, I am just waiting…as he began to speak : “you know, I have to make a decision…” Cleaver act as he is telling me: Look, is my call! Not yours!. He said “we gotto come up with something that cover us!” Well, what he really meant was, cover him. “I am gonna tell boss about this, I am gonna said, I take in your word as what you reported and this happen and we are truly sorry.” Wow…see that? How cleaver is he? To have just put all the responsibility to me, and leave me the one who be blamed? I left no choice but to agreed. Well…actually I have a choice, if I need to do it, I will…But is not me to confront him. I have 7 days to face him and till this duty is done, I shall see…

Often I come to this point where I felt foolish of being upset over these things. But this dirty politic act is everywhere… You just got to live with it. I guess it make me a person who I am today.

One day if I leave this job, I don’t think I’ll miss anything here. This is because I know I will survive anywhere else. And I will be so sorry for the company to have this type of people kept and the nice type of people leave. Suddenly I understand why Velerie just left before a few months getting her 15K if she stays. It’s just so disgusted of staying on and endures these people where 15K can’t buy your dignity!

LaSt LaP..

What is done is done and it can't be undone...So, accept the fate and move on!!!

Yesterday's paper was tricky. Unusual questions and somehow felt that past days of effort is wasted. Haiz... But also there's a little voice deep inside my heart tell me that I could have done better, if only...ha!

Well, let the past be the past and I shall concentrate on tomorrow's paper. After which I will enjoy my break!!! Like what Jessey said, I deserved it! =P

Last lap..till I am done with the course, there's always another lap to go!!!

P/S: My friends out there...I'll be back in KL from 2nd -4th of June. Shall meet up with ya soon! Do make reservation in advance k? haha...

I am so proud of you!!!

My little brother Wen Jiun was choosen as one of the winners of HP notebook's skin design competition. Only 9 were selected in Malaysia. This is the first time in his life that he ever won something. He is never a academic kind of person. But had always show his passion for art and designing. I am so proud of him as I see him work so hard and this definately is a confidence booster to him.

As for me...tired is the overall description of my physical condition. Really run out of time on revision for my last two papers. Yet there are too much to study. How I wish I could study non-stop without feeling tired. Time is running out, I know. I just wanna cover as much as I can. Definately gonna spot question for IBM. No no for anyone facing an important exam like this. But I have no choice but to do so. As for PBF, shall score in my section B, the calculation. Oh God, wish I can have a super brain that remember everything I read. Didn't they said, woman have better memory than guy? Why didn't it apply here?

Give me more time pls!!!!

没有你的日子。。。

没有你的日子
其实也没什么不一样

一样的生活
呼吸着一样的空气

仍然为同样的问题困扰
仍然没有答案

然后我想
这表示着什么吗

见面的时候我依然开心
可不见面思念的感觉渐渐麻痹
已经学会不在乎了
已经开始习惯了

接下来的日子没有你
我会好好的
三年来的独自生活
我和寂寞相处地很好
虽然偶尔牵挂
但还是会习惯

做一个快乐的大近视

和朋友谈起这个话题是因为她在自己的户口表示：
有谁可以在乎我？我需要一点爱来坚持下去。。。

A: 我来爱你！ 要坚持哦！
L；谢谢你！我很需要被人爱。。。
A：其实有没有想过为什么人需要爱？是需要，还是寂寞？
L；我也不知道，只是一种感觉，想要被爱。。。
A：我想原因很可能是人希望被需要，其实我们都是寂寞的动物。
L：希望被需要＝渴望被爱。应该不是寂寞。。。因为人生很精彩，每一天都过得很充实。
A：可是你知道吗？尽管我现在一边工作，一边读书，我还是很寂寞。
L：我的是有点“空空”的感觉。
A：笨蛋！那不是寂寞，是什么？
L：不是寂寞，寂寞太夸张了。寂寞不等于空虚。寂寞太可悲了。
A：或许我的感觉和你不一样吧？我觉得是寂寞，你却认为是空虚。寂寞不可悲，因为人本来就
要面对寂寞。空虚对我来说是不知道自己要什么，很可怕。我害怕寂寞，更怕空虚。
L：或许就象你说的，我根本不知道自己要的是什么。无论是爱情还是未来，能看到的都很模糊
。让人很没有安全感。
A：我明白，因为就算我现在有份工作，也在读书。未来会是怎样，我还是不懂。我想没有人能
很肯定自己的未来吧？不过我的朋友对我说：YOU ARE ON THE RIGHT TRACK！我想只
能这样吧？因为不知道自己要的是什么，所以只能做眼前的事。就当自己是个大近视，没有
眼镜，没办法！就只好小心翼翼地看着眼前的东西，慢慢地走。至少眼前还是清晰的，太远
的就别看别想！

I know...

When do you know a guy is truly in love with you?
When he sees you, his eyes lights up...

When do you know he could be the one?
When he sees you bare face and still thinks you are the prettiest...

When do you know he will not leave you no matter what?
When you make him upset yet he blame himself but not you...

When do you know...
Well, I just know...

Tomorrow will be the day. God...wonder if I could do it. Dear dear said try my best and I shall be okay... Well, easy for him to say COZ HE IS NOT THE ONE TAKING THE EXAM!!!!

Okay...instead of wasting time here, I shall go back to my revision. Haiz....

A Taste of Home...

You know when you have nice collegues? When they are more like family than workmates? It heart warming...

A taste of home....

We are family.
From the left: Tham, Edwin, me and Charmaine

eAt OuT!!!

Eat out today. Went to the NewYork NewYork in CityHall Link and had a great meal. Espeacially the crunchy mushroom that we had!!! Was amazed how such a simple food been so delicious. Yum Yum....

After a delightful meal. We went on to have out dessert at Novena. Saw channel 5 introducing this hong kong cafe and tempted to give it a try. Well, bad move!

The dessert which is our favourite whenever Ping and I visited HK is rather so so...Not up to the standard that we expected. The worst thing is the French Toast. Claimed to be both the chef's and local TV recommendation, it is rather horrible. I had one bite and both of us look at each other...YUCKS!!! Never a french toast that bad! Suppecting that it was the oil they used, we decided to leave.

Well, lesson learned. Never believe 100% on what the TV says. As for the TV hosts, you guys must speak your heart...It's called "social responsibility" kay?

Be alone....

4:55 a.m.
No one awake but me...
Since coming back, I was looking forward to meet Ping and yet I didn't really lay my eyes on him yesterday when he came over.I guess I am just too tired of waiting...

Somehow when he left, I felt awake again and feeling sad, I had my yogurt to comfort me...*Sob sob*

Sometimes I just wish he could be more sensitive. But he is often the time careless... I know, after all, that's difference between guys and gals... It just sometime make me tired and depressed.

Expecting a msg from him when he got home. Yet, my phone remain silent.

Called home yesterday. Feels good talking to mum, the one who is always there for me.

Might be the exam blues that's killing me right now. But I shall slow everything down...need some time for myself...