Long day....

19th Sept 2006

God...Schedule has been really tight these days. Has been sleeping less than 4 hour each and every day. Work, study and holiday during my birthday. I need a good rest....

Yesterday was a totally worn off day for me. Came back from work in the morning and without showering. (I know is unhygenic, but when you are tired and worn off, sleep is the up most important thing in your mind). So, I crash to the bed and caught a solid 3 hours nap. Although not long after I fall asleep, Ping's mother called me to ask if i had already gone down to the office to change my flight ticket. I was filled with guilt that I should go down as soon as possible, yet knowing that today will be a long day for me, I need to sleep now! 11am, got waken by the sms that Ping's mother sent me. I rushed to the toilet and take a quick shower and rushed out,hopefully I can get my ticket done before the lunch time. So, within half an hour, I am in the office already.

I managed to change my ticket, and to my surprise it only took me 10 minutes to do so. Efficient!!!Then with some time to spare, I had a quick lunch in the staff canteen. Had my favourite popiah and honey grapefruit juice. And proceed to town.

I was so tired and in the 1/2 hour mrt journey, I actually fallen asleep. Not very usual for me, as I dislike to sleep in the public. Then I went for my facial appointment for 3 hours. Fall asleep in between again. After my facial, I met Jess for dinner and happen that she actually meeting Kevin. So, 3 of us end up having dinner at cafe cartel.

Kevin is a nice guy and 3 of us have a great time togather. Suppose to go for my class after the meal, but Jess wanted me to join them for movie. Filled with tireness and what I want is only to sleep. Almost tempted to go movie with them coz i think i can sleep in the cinema. But I guess I have the guilt of not attending classes thinking that I will miss the next two weeks lectures, I better go. So in less then half n hour to spare. I rushed to class on time.

Although the last half n hour I can't really catch what he is talking about (too sleepy). But at least it's not a waste trip. Then as I was heading home, I met Xing down stair my house. He is waiting for Jess to message him as he've got something to pass to her. Jess promise to message him when she is back home. Knowing that Jess is already at home, I urge him to go up. But he refuse and ask me to pass the thing to her. Sensing that something is wrong, I told Xing Jess wanted to eat ( She called me ealier on) . Without hesistation, Xing offer to buy her supper. Because he is not familiar with the place, I offer to direct him. So we drove to Bedok North to take away chicken wings and dessert.

While we were waiting for the chicken wings to be ready, Jess message me and xing. Jess told Xing that she is not at home yet. And she told me Kevin is at home. Of coz what she don't know is, Xing is with me. So,fearing that Xing will find out, I ask Jess to ask Kevin to leave. My message sound fierce and scare Kevin off a little. He must be wondering how can a person be so nice in a second n the next moment she is so fierce. But then I don't care. What I fear more is,Xing will get hurt coz I knew he is a nice guy.

Anyway, when we were home. Kevin is already gone and Jess finally understand why I reacted that way in the message. Feeling touch and guilt, she told me she was crying talking to Xing over the phone yesterday.

Well, I sort of scolded her cause I felt she is making people feel hopeful yet don't want to commit. I said she is not ready in any serious relationship although she wants it very much.She is just still not ready for one yet...

The One...

13 Sept 2006

So we came to the serious talk...
As Ping dad leaving soon to US, he asked Ping to get marry if he is ready. Something that always cross a parent 's mind when your son seem to have a stable relationship. And Ping standard answer as always:" Another two years." haha...

I guess, two year is a good timing as we are financially and mentally prepare. By then I should have finish my study, five years in my job mean sense of steadiness in life and of cause, the long waited 15k!!!

I guess I have change my mind about getting marry at 28-30. That was a target I set for myself far before I started my 1st relationship,those yound days... But now I felt if you are into this relationship so seriously, anytime is possible. And we are so in love with each other.Each and everyday the feeling just grow...I never thought this was possible.

Someone will think I am crazy, as I am only 22(soon). What make you think he is the ONE? I guess no one can answer that. No one in any age could answer this question. WHO IS THE ONE? We crack our head finding answer, refusing to commit as we fear there is a better one out there. But the truth is, we don't know. At this moment, he is the one.

I dreamt of this dream that it is the day I get marry and I was on the street in my wedding gown where my husband-to-be is busy sweeping the street. Weird huh? The funniest thing is that he is not Ping but a HK actor that we always see on TV. Lim Bao Yi, anyone know who is he? The guy who named Henry in the drama series Healing Hands. Funny...When I told Ping, he was laugh non-stop as usual...Then he said to me, I hope I can be your road sweeper. Isn't that the sweetest thing you could hear from a man? When there are dozen of man outside, fearing to commit and here there is this guy that looking forward to make you his wife and the mistress of his white dream house ( well, this is another story...) I guess life couldn't be any better....