27th May 2006
OVERCOME
Wake up as early as 0645 hrs despite having only slept for 4 hours. Feeling shitty just like yesterday. I need to talk. So I called home. Finally talking to my dad and get the whole thing clearly understand. I felt better after that. Though it make no changes to anything. But at least, I felt whole lots better. I guess I hate it when things lost control and I learned, if you do not want anything to lost its control, take control!!!
POSEIDON
Went for a movie with Derrick and his friend(forgot his name, i think is Gary) haha...Anyway, we watch the movie name Poseidon. At first I didn't have the mood to come out at all.But I guess when you are feeling down and you wanna turn it around. You can't just sit there and wait for something good to happen. So I decided to go out and who knows? something nice might happen.
The movie is quite nice. Turn out to be quite a breath taking and tight with story line's movie. However, something was missing...but I just don't know what is it.
SURVIVING
It has been a whole day now and I am still surviving. In fact with the help of Derrick, I got something for myself. Then I decide, if ever any unhappy incident occur, I will buy myself a gift. I also buy Ping a gift, as I felt strongly to give him one. Though none of our birthday is near but I guess giving never need a reason. I guess this little trick do worked. I am feeling happy now.
FOUND
I am back to my old self. The girl who go so emotional and angry have gone and I am back to my old self. I am just so glad that Ping stays with me that night where things happend and I felt so lost. I know he is tired but the fact that he stay gave me strength to be strong.
Saturday, May 27, 2006
eVeRyThiNg gOiNg tO bE FiNe....i WiSh...
I try to convinced myself that everything is going to be fine.
Yet deep inside I just so afraid that things don't turn out well.
I am so dissapointed with people around me.
Yet it's not them I should blame.
I feel like crying...
wanting someone to hold me tight...
feel like shouting...
hoping someone to shout with me...
feel like sleeping...
coz i am tired both physical and mentally...
I don't think anyone understand what I am talking about...
I think I am not myself at all tonight...
Hope tomorrow it's a brand new day...
I just wish....
I don't think anyone understand what I am talking about...
I think I am not myself at all tonight...
Hope tomorrow it's a brand new day...
I just wish....
Sunday, May 21, 2006
gReeTiNg FrOm bRiSbAnE...
21st May 2006
Yesterday I was working on my personal time table, listing down things that I should do...It's hard coz I have so much to do yet so little time. Less time to spent with my dear but I know he will understand.
Well, yesterday night as Ping and I were sms'ing each other. I told Ping about my plan and the anxienty I am facing because of things that I need to do. And he said he will always stand by me and give me surport...very sweet of him. Then I told Ping that the fact that he is so surportive meant alot to me. And later I got this message from him saying that he would go for breakfast tomorrow...bla bla bla...totally irrelevant. Is funny...for a second I thought he sms to a wrong person. Then later I figure out. He don't know how to respone to my message.Ha! Well, not the first time.
I always understand Ping as a very conservative guy who take in alot of consideration before doing something. He won't commit to any promise or even sweet talk about our future. I guess he feels that it's too early to say and the fact that I am still young and he is not ready, make him hold back. Well, perhaps that time when he ask me to become his gf is probably the bravest thing he have done to a girl...without giving much of thought...I guess when he look back he probably am surprise himself. Hope he never have regretted of his decision=P
I am not to complaint coz I know there are things that is far more precious to be appreciate. And I am always gladful to have him.
Yesterday I was working on my personal time table, listing down things that I should do...It's hard coz I have so much to do yet so little time. Less time to spent with my dear but I know he will understand.
Well, yesterday night as Ping and I were sms'ing each other. I told Ping about my plan and the anxienty I am facing because of things that I need to do. And he said he will always stand by me and give me surport...very sweet of him. Then I told Ping that the fact that he is so surportive meant alot to me. And later I got this message from him saying that he would go for breakfast tomorrow...bla bla bla...totally irrelevant. Is funny...for a second I thought he sms to a wrong person. Then later I figure out. He don't know how to respone to my message.Ha! Well, not the first time.
I always understand Ping as a very conservative guy who take in alot of consideration before doing something. He won't commit to any promise or even sweet talk about our future. I guess he feels that it's too early to say and the fact that I am still young and he is not ready, make him hold back. Well, perhaps that time when he ask me to become his gf is probably the bravest thing he have done to a girl...without giving much of thought...I guess when he look back he probably am surprise himself. Hope he never have regretted of his decision=P
I am not to complaint coz I know there are things that is far more precious to be appreciate. And I am always gladful to have him.
Friday, May 19, 2006
CuLiNaRy DaY...YuMMy!!!
19th May 2006
Got back from my dear's place. Like what he said, today is a bonus to both of us coz we get to spent more time togather. I think both of us are trying and putting effort to spend more time with each other as both our roster clashed. Really happy to see things really going well between two of us. It's has been almost 8 months now...
Anyway, that day while meeting up at City Hall, Ping came up with this idea of cooking togather. So we went to MPH look for some cookery book especially those that is dedicated for vegetarian. People has always been wondering how we cope with each other as I am not a vegetarian like Ping. But it never has been a problem to both of us coz we just eat what we want. Neither of us wanna to change each other. Why should we?Anyway, Ping is a easy eater. Basically, he is more of a "carbohidratian" than a vegetarian. haha...
Well, so we have make yesterday our culinary day. I wake up very early despite sleeping late the night before.and went to the market to get all the ingredients. I have decided to cook a whole vegetarian meal for Ping. I figure it would be nice that he can eat whatever I cook. So,this is the menu I came up with.
STARTER
Jiun's Style Lotus Root and Sweet Potato Tempura(Without Tempura Dip)
It's called Jiun's Style because basically it's a a unqualified tempura.haha...
SOUP OF THE DAY
2nd Attempt's Lotus Root and Peanut Soup
My 2nd time cooking this soup...nice!
MAIN COURSE
A Little Burned Curry Lamb
It's not really curry and in process of being a rendang...
"Simply " Stir Fried Shitake and Egg Tofu
Coz it's really a creation of my creativity=P
The Mysterious Aparagus
Mysterious becoz this dish is taken care of by my dear...have no idea how he cooked it.
DESSERT
Self Claimed The Best Home Made Konyakku Jelly
I think it's really one of the best..Don't play play!
DRINK
Sour Plum or Water Chestnut(Sponsored by Doreen)
Doreen is Ping's Mum...ha!
So, that's my menu. It turn out to be quite alright despite my official first time cooking. Ping said is delicious...well...maybe he is too kind to hurt my heart. Well, I am happy to cook for him, and glad that he finish almost everything. Till our next culinary day comes, I better make sure two of us shed away the pounds that we put on today....Sinful!
Monday, May 01, 2006
BcK 2 rEaLiTy...
1st May 2006
I am very tired...both physically and mentally. Just got back from KL after a long weekend. I miss my family.It has been quite a while since I last went home. It's great to be at home,to be pamper and to be care like a princess.
Yet when I come back to S'pore.Is back to reality. There are so many things to settle and somehow I felt I am really out of time and energy. I need someone to hold me tight and reassure that I am doing fine. But it's not me to be defeated. I can't bare to be defeated. That's what make me continue.
Got mail from SIM saying that I've been offer a place.Then the next thing is I gotto pay my tuition fee,$4200 per year,one shot...Though I have long prepare to pay this big sum of money yet it's still scare me hell out that I am actually paying it. I guess I never had to pay such a big bill in my life before. Somehow, it put me to think about how am I gonna cope? Am I mentally ready for all these? God, I am scared...real scared...
I am very tired...both physically and mentally. Just got back from KL after a long weekend. I miss my family.It has been quite a while since I last went home. It's great to be at home,to be pamper and to be care like a princess.
Yet when I come back to S'pore.Is back to reality. There are so many things to settle and somehow I felt I am really out of time and energy. I need someone to hold me tight and reassure that I am doing fine. But it's not me to be defeated. I can't bare to be defeated. That's what make me continue.
Got mail from SIM saying that I've been offer a place.Then the next thing is I gotto pay my tuition fee,$4200 per year,one shot...Though I have long prepare to pay this big sum of money yet it's still scare me hell out that I am actually paying it. I guess I never had to pay such a big bill in my life before. Somehow, it put me to think about how am I gonna cope? Am I mentally ready for all these? God, I am scared...real scared...
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