aNoNyMoUs...

28th July 2006

Suddenly my post seem to be notice by someone...someone anonymous that leave a comment at my recent posts. It's kinda funny...perhaps it's my respone to her/his first comment :

"Thanks...leaving such a comment at my moodiest post has indeed lighten up my day!"

So, almost each and my recent posts has similar comment that compliment my blogs and ask me to keep it up! Ha!

It seem unreal, as I sometime wonder does these people exist. Maybe I always have this feeling that I am writing to myself. That no one actually know about this blogs...But it always felt good that someone admire what you write...what you think...

Ping is not here again. This time we won't be around each other for 19 days. It's getting unbearable that we are not seeing each other. As there are cases where our friends breaking up, we seem to hold on to each other tighter. When Ping told me about Luke, I can feel he was as if telling me how appreciative is he towards me... =)

Have you ever had this guy, where you are so "yourself" with him. And you could imagine growing old with him. Ping is such guy...even before we were togather, I thought...He is the one...It sometimes scare me a little that I have such thoughts because I always thought " life is unpredictable..."

It really does scare me...

2nd Culinary Day

26th July 2006

I am sitting in front of my laptop, waiting for my dear to come. This is a unplanned culinary day.Hehe...I just can't wait to see his delighted face.

So what did I have for my dear this time?

STARTER

JIUN'S STYLE

DOESN'T REALLY SEEM LIKE DEEP FRIED TOFU

(WITH PING'S FAVOURITE THAI SWEET CHILI =p)

SOUP OF THE DAY

SIMPLY JIUN'S ABC SOUP

MAIN COURSE

A LITTLE BURNED AGAIN SWEET STIR FRIED PORK

"SIMPLY" STIR FRIED CABBAGE

DESSERT

JIUN'S SPECIALLY PICKED ORANGES

(IT GOTTO BE SWEET)

DRINK

HEALTHY H2O

It's not something I have planned long ago so I didn't cook as much as the first time I did. In fact all the recipe except the soup was decide when I was doing marketing for the ingredients. Haha...I kinda admire my creativity. Or was it my "simplicity"? =P

Anyway, still waiting for my dear...been an hour now...what's taking him so long? Sigh....

aGaiN...

19th July 2006

Have you ever have that kind of feeling when unhappy things happen again and again. When you actually determine not to let it repeat its history. But your desire had betrayed you that you did it again? It happen to me...

I guess it's part of my fault. Knowing that the whole thing will make me unhappy eventually. Still, I let myself do it. I should have leave it to him at the first place. If he wants it bad enough, he would have ask for Roger's number. But instead I am the one who ask Roger. How stupid I am? Idiot!!!!!

Not the first time, and I am determine to not to let it happen. Yet I repeat the mistake myself. Why did he hint it to me that he could spend that 3 days with me. Then later when I told him I have asked Roger, he actually think twice? I hate being to compare...but I felt I am not that important after all...And he thought I was unhappy because of fearing what Roger thinks. Why would I care how people think ? If I do, what is the reason I put myself into a condition when everyone thinks :" this girl is so DESPERATE to spend time with her bf!",again and again? First time he let me feel that I am stupid, 2nd time it's dumb and I am tired, then now I am a total fool!!!

What so good bout this guy that I have lower myself till I nearly lost myself? Why did I did it again when I was hurt, felt stupid, and cried. Perhaps God has His plan. That He didn't allow the cof to work, that I will be away at least a day to be with myself, think these all over... moaning for my stupidity...

Emotionally Detox

07 July 06

I realiase I've been easily moved these days. I wonder why. For the past 3 days, I've cried twice. First time was because of the hong kong drama series...silly. Second time was because of the Oprah Show I watched. Well...I always regard myself as someone not easily cry. Crying sort of meant defeated to me. Ever since that time I cried so badly in front of Ping, I just get teary easily these days. So, the new defination of crying is " DETOX". I think it's sort of emotionally detox. Sometimes your emotionally bear too much that you need someway to release the pain in you. Anyway, it felt good after that.=)

Missing my dear very much...though I have a very busy schedule these 3 days and have accomplished alot, yet it just felt something missing. Can't help but think it would be much better if he is around. Somehow I wonder, why am still so in love with him? haha...silly...but I really am thinking about tat...When I try to fine a reason, I can only jump to the conclusion: Because it's Ping. =)

JoGGing fEveR....

01 July 2006
Woke up in the morning, have this muscle pain all over...haha...I knew I shouldn't have gone jogging in consecutive 2 days. Anyway, it felt great!!! I consider myself not bad as I am not a regular runner and always thought I do not have much stamina. Then again, maybe the occasional aikido session do help as I was surprise I could jog without stopping.

The first day, for a start I do not want to over tired myself so I started up with a quick walking around the field. It's not a very big field though...Then I start running. At first I thought of just doing one or two round as a starting. Then I realiase I could finish that two round without stopping and feeling uneasy. So, I continue running. In the end I jog 5 round around the field in total. GREAT!!!

2nd day, figure that my body doesn't feel any pain so I decided to go for a jog. This time I also did a 5 round jog with 2 round of quick walking.One at the start to warm up and one at the end as a cool down. I realiase I sweat more easily than the first day which is good!!!

Haha....at least I get myself started so hopefully I can continue. Who knows? Maybe like what Ping said, I could drop till 45kg...haha...crazy!