BeSt wAy tO LoSt WeIgHt....

Over the past 5 days, I have discovered the best way to lose weight is...

1) Missing somebody badly
2) When somebody getting on your nerve
3) You are eating yet you are not
4) Working too hard

Just hope this weight losing is not an unhealthy sign of my body...hitting the new record...

我就是在炫耀！

对啦！对啦！ 我就是在炫耀！

每次出国他都会带回点东西回来。虽然不是什么贵重（有时是很贵啦！〕的东西。但是，每次都很贴心哦！

最近忙着准备考试，心理和身体都有点受不了。各种问题让我有点喘不过气来，于是我也比平时爱撒娇。（他可能也觉得：宝贝，最近也太会撒娇了吧？〕可是，他应该还满喜欢的吧？＝P

心理年龄任性地变成3岁；身体却是无可奈何的40岁。。。累。对于我这样的转变，他一贯地用“不变因百变”来应付，哈哈！可搞不好他其实也没发觉。。。所以结论是他可能是“处机不变”，不然就是“迟钝过人”！ 哈！

1/2

Ms. X: What is this?

A: Half of a heart.

Ms.X: Where's the other half?

A: With my boy friend....=P

Priceless...

I felt like a princess...all because of Ping.
The way he treated me...the way he take care of me...I know he really treasure me.

Sometimes when you are too close, we tend overlook each other's feeling...
When we treat each other as part of ourself, we tend to neglect each other's need...

Is in moment like this, you need remember...
It's he/she that you should treasure.
It's he/she that treat you as he/she always do...
It's he/she that 's real ....
It's he/she tat's matter...

A: Can you buy me?
P: How? I can't afford?
A: Don't want ar?
P: Coz...you are priceless.
A: ............

When you have too much negative things in life, let's focus on the positive ones...

The first time I saw these pictures, I got this strange feeling in me...I was so moved by these pictures that doesn't speak...How about you?

珍惜眼前。。。

我想珍惜的，总是从我身边溜走。。。童年。。。时间。。。

Egg-less Honey Brownies

喜欢一个人，会希望为他做点什么吧？就算是很小很小的一件事。。。

Ping's dad is a vegetarian. He had a sweet tooth for dessert, especially brownies. Because of his health condition, he can't take anything with cholesterol. In another word, he can't take any dessert with eggs. So, I thought...maybe I could make something without egg...

The first time I did, I followed a egg-less brownies recipe that I found online. Well, it's okay...but not as tasty though...So, this time, I did it my way! Ha...

If you have someone you care that can't take anything with cholesterol, you might like to try this...but let me warn you...it might not turn out as you want coz this is written down as how I remember it.

Egg-less Honey Brownies

1/2 cup of margarine

1 tsp of vanilla essence

1/2 cup of flour

1 small pinch of salt

honey

1 tbs of baking powder

1 tbs of canola oil (vegetable oil)

1 tbs of warm water

2 tbs of cocoa powder

leftover chocolate bar in the fridge (good chance to clear your fridge)

walnuts

First of all, melt the chocolate bar in a bowl. Put the bowl inside a pot filled with 1/3 of water. (reason: so that the chocolate would not burn easily)

Then mix the margarine with honey and cocoa powder. How much honey to put is depend on yourself. I tasted the mixture to see if I need to add more. Beat it with a electrical mixer.

Subsequently mix in others ingredients including the melted chocolate( except for the walnuts).

Beat it with the electrical mixer.

When all the ingredient is well mixed, add the walnuts and this time just mix it with a big spoon. At last, put the mixture into a mould and bake it in a oven which had been preheated about 10 minutes at 180 degree Celsius. Baked for 25-35 minutes.

When the surface of the brownies look shiny and the edge is slightly burned. You can poked a tooth pit into it, if the tooth pit is not sticky when you pull out, it's done. If not, you can lower the heat to 160 degree Celsius and monitor.

The brownies I baked this time turn out good. I guess sometimes you just can't follow the books...A little of your creativity add a little flavour to your baking. YUMMY!!!!

曾经太年轻。。。

说着往事
我和他似乎都更能坦然相对
那段过去
不再那么不堪

彼此感谢过去
对方给予的真心
更感谢现在
依然是朋友的包容

他说一直很庆幸认识我
而我因为这份庆幸
似乎感染了他的幸福

曾经不愿面对的过去
此刻是两人珍贵的回忆
至少我们没有失去彼此

他说听这首歌
他想起了我

窗外风铃一直不安静
风在摇晃不安的宿命
我聆听
你回忆经过的声音

开始旅行寂寞很清醒
我在靠近过去的边境
有些
恋人只是
路过的风景

曾经太过年轻却绝对真心
我给的爱始终任性
不懂花开只是一次的爱情

曾经太过年轻
泪纯真透明
你的坚定
我仍然还
相信

直到如今你说爱的那封信
我一直都收藏着
折叠用心
让誓言干净

曾经太过年轻
在人海飘零
那些关于我的事情
总有你紧紧跟随的身影

曾经太过年轻
泪纯真透明
你的坚定
我仍然还
相信

心情的颜色。。。

最近很忙。。。
忙得有点害怕
忙得有点精神紧张
忙得变得很容易哭泣
幸好有你

曾经看过一本书
说的是每个人都有一种“气”
那是一个人与生俱来的
要是用颜色区分的话
我的是橙黄色
你的一定是海蓝色

我总是急躁地事事要求完美
象火焰 时而大时而小
情绪化
而你却总是不缓不急很有分寸
象云朵 懒懒地
很温柔

于是我们在一起就会有种奇怪的化学作用
心情和周围的气氛就很不一样
青青地 轻轻地
象树林 象草原
很舒服

你觉得呢。。。

希望。。。

前几天
一个人看了“生日快乐”
戏院里 人很少
可只有我是一个人。。。

讨厌等待
不喜欢
“知道你会来 却又不知道几时 ”的这种感觉
于是决定一个人看电影
在等待你的同时
好像这样
等待的寂寞就会少一点点

好好看的一部电影
节奏有点幔
却不会沉闷
让你有反思的空间
最后还是哭了
只是没办法尽情地哭。。。

看完电影
打电话给你
你刚出门
难过
因为就算知道我看完电影的时间
你仍然没有早到

一时间
那因为电影而暂时忘却的寂寞情绪
排山倒海地涌了上来
好难过

“你不要来了！”我说
其实很希望你来

“我很累！”
其实还有失望难过

“就算来了又怎样？都那么夜了。。。”
其实多夜也好，只想见见你

生气
我还是帮你买了晚餐
仿佛生气你 和你饿不饿是不相干的事
为什么生气也不能很彻底
我真白痴

结果晚上我哭得稀里哗啦地
其实不过给自己一个哭泣的借口
其是也不过是小事一桩

只是希望你多想想我
只是希望多见见你
只是希望你把我放在第一位
只是希望。。。

What if...

If...
Someone who wish you "Good Night" every night,
Someone who ask you to " Take Care every time you are away...
Someone who said "Welcomed Home..."every time you are back...
Someone who noticed your feeling everytime you appear...

If there's this "someone",
What do you do?

What if...
He suddenly say nothing no more...

What if...
He suddenly disappear from your life...

What if...
You've lost him forever...

What do you do?

SmiLe bIG aNd LaUgH hArD!!!

Early morning...i got a big surprise!


































It was Derrick!
Jess was the one who answer the door when the florist delivery man came. I think she got shocked.Ha!

And she said there must be something not right. What she don't know is, I was so down yesterday that when I met Derrick for dinner. First thing he asked is :"what happen to you?".

Even he could notice I am not quite myself...So, he just wanna cheer me up!

The day before (friday), as I was on my way home after my class. Was reading this book and somehow relate myself with the character and felt so sad for myself. Almost tears and don't dare to look up afraid that someone might notice.When I got home, I sms Ping : "too much!". I don't think he ever get what it means.

I know it wasn't his fault. Is his phone and the signal oversea was bad. But I have no idea becoz he didn't bother to let me know. For total 4 days I heard nothing from him and for once, I imagine he actually doesn't excist, as if it could make me feel better.

And true enough, he didn't realiase it was a problem at all. So, I make a deal with him. No sms, no phone, no email when we are oversea. At least, no expectation wouldn't bring any dissapoinment. Just like cof, no more cof, no more unhappiness. So, problem solved.

Won't be upset anymore. I should be responsible for my own happiness. Dissapointed wih myself how I handled this matter. Never mind, lesson learned.

As for Jess said about Derrick...

He knows and he don't expect anything...
He like it this way...
He is happy like this...
Is he silly?

Nah...we are the silly one....

Revolution of the month: Smile big and laugh hard!!!

两个人的寂寞。。。

有过这种感觉吗？
自己在和自己谈恋爱
拼命地拍打着空气
以为这就是声音

突然怀疑他的存在
甚至觉得一切都是梦
我想我真的是有了时差。。。待续。。。

Just smile...

Well...2nd blog of the day...the previous one was a few minutes ago.ha! Sometimes this happen when you got so much in your mind but don't know how to put in word one shot.

Got back from work today.Got a little disturbed as still wasn't comfortable working with my supervisor. Need to overcome this. Although I know he did put in effort to create a condusive environment. Just...You know, there are people you know they work with their heart, some work with experience and mind. He is the 2nd type. As a leader, he is brilliant considering all the small details that most leaders will overlook. Yet, I can't sense his sincerity...

Just a simple smile makes the different. Of coz it gotto be genuine...A genuine smile is so powerful that it melts ones heart...I just wish...he could show more genuine smile to his own surbodinates...Did I ask too much today? Call me greedy!

“永远”只是个梦。。。

Haven't been talking to Jess for a week now.

So, now what? My fault is it, of getting everyone into this situation? Well, I don't know. As much as I am concern bout her, I still can't lay down to her. Like Sumiko Tan said in her column in ST today: "I couldn't and I didn't " as she felt she doesn't deserved to the harsh word that her friend said to her. I can't be more agreed. I don't deserved cold shoulder from a friend who I regards as a "close friend".

I never have many friends though I might know alot of people.But those that regards as a friend mean a lot to me. So, I am sadden that she treat me this way as if I meant nothing in her heart. I am just a "housemate + normal friend" she happen to encounter.

我不勉强
我不强求
早知道“永远”是梦想
我还是喜欢发梦。。。

请尊重我好吗？

叫我小气！叫我自私！我受不了了！！！

原本好意替JESS折衣服，因为她病了！可是却发现我的短裙在她洗好的衣服堆里。那是一件我许久未穿的短裙。我以为是我们不小心混乱了，或是她也有一样的裙子，因为她很多这类的裙子，于是不以为意。。。

于是继续折下去。。。又发现了另一个我从未穿过的DRESS。怎么可以这样？

不是我介意她穿我的衣服。而是她根本没有问过我！而且这件衣服已经洗好了，那就表示那是好几天前的事。

我受不了！ 越来越觉得我们不能再住在一起了！ 我讨厌东西被弄乱。更讨厌的是不被尊重。原本就知道我们彼此的不同。她是夜猫子，我习惯早睡早起；她很轻眠，于是早起的我每每会小心翼翼地不愿把她吵醒。。。我只要一个基本的尊重。分担家务，用后碗筷自己洗。垃圾要定时丢。别把用了的锅子留在炉上。想象如果你不回来，家里没有人，它就会留在那儿整整三天，食物变臭。这是什么家？

够了。。我想已经够了。。。

我好幸福！！！

昨天算是蛮充实的一天吧？ 中午和Derrick看了场电影－Night In The Museum。起初对这部电影并没有什么期许，就喜剧嘛。。。然而可能也因为这样，觉得这电影实在不错，是一部轻松带点惊喜的电影。

看完电影，在等待永佳和Elice的同时，和Derrick 喝下午茶。间种谈了很多，因为太久没有见面了，一直谈着的话题可能有点重复着，因此发现他真的很在意我。我很多事他都记得。去旅行时，也总会想起我，而买了纪念品回来。想想我何德何能，竟然被那么地重视着。觉得有点惭愧，但他也明白我的心容不下第二个人了。我不敢奢望他一直对我好，象哥哥对妹妹一样。不过我一定会珍惜这份友情。。。

和永佳·Elice 吃饭谈起了Eeleen最近发生的大事。觉得她实在是个太感情用事的人。永佳说快乐不因建筑在一个男人身上。我没回应，因为我想我的部分快乐的确建筑在我周遭的人身上。但这不代表我不会对自己的快乐负责，只是当周遭的人快乐时，我也同样快乐。

就象那天买了个礼物给平恩。看着他拿着礼物的样子，我好幸福。我嚷着要拍下照片，以图为证，其实只是好想把他当时那快乐的表情永远记录下来。

11时17分，夜。

接到平恩远从伦敦拨来的电话。

“新年快乐”他说

“嗯。。。”我要哭了。
“为什么。。。”电话费很贵的。

“想和dear dear说声新年快乐。用电话卡，不会很贵。”

“你好吗？”笨蛋！其实是想说：我好想你！

“嗯，睡了一觉，好多了！”他的声音好温柔。

“。。。。”还有很多话想对你说，从那里开始呢？

“那我挂电话了。。。”怎么办？我还有很多话要说！！！

“我爱你！”他说。突然我平静了下来，不慌了。

“我也爱你！”

原来就是那么简单的三个字，包含了思念以及一切复杂情感。好简单哦。。。

Cheerios........

This is my favourite cereal- Cheerios. A typical American cereal where it's made of oat n whole grain. Although there's similar one in S'pore but nothing taste quite like this. Has finished at least 6 boxes for the past 3 months. And this is the precious last box. Thanks to the generous contribution of my dear dear...sob sob...moved....

It's my fixed course in my breakfast where I will eat it with strawberry yogurt instead of milk. The rich and creamy yogurt plus the crunchy cheerios...Oh, I wish I could have breakfast 3 meals a day.

So, what do I do after the last box is finished?Well, let's just concentrate on the present...ha!

It's ShOoTinG tImE...

sHooTing iN aCtIon...

Haha...favourite past time of couples- self shooting. I guess I am getting better in this due to... what else but vainity? But look at our hilarious expression...hehe...there are certainly more to come!!!

SisTeR oF tHe dAy...

23rd Dec 2006

So, here I am early in the morning at Selina's place. It's her wedding day and I promised to be her sister of the day...Well, no experience in being a sister so I have totally no idea what I need to do. Lucky enough there's 5 of us, so I just keep quiet and follow. ha!

So, the usual thing we do. Fix a "nice" cocktails for the bridesgroom. It's diet coke with all kinds of ingredient that you can find in a kitchen. And as caring as us, we add a raw egg giving the reason--it can boost up the bridesgroom's energy level at night...haha...evil...

Well, the first step of asking "ang pao" from Weng(he's the man of the day!!) has been a failure. Because the "smart" and cunning Weng has the key into the house.

Lesson 1: Bring your own lock next time...

However, we show the guys that we aren't so easily defeated. With two of us safe guarding the bride's room. The other 3 sisters bargaining with the brothers. When we ask them to drink the specially fixed cocktail, that's when you know who your brother really is. All "siam"!!! haha...So, the cocktail was pass from one to another and no one wanted to be the victim. And without realising that they drink it, it's a empty cup they hand it back. Well, well, if you think we are so easy to be settle, you make the biggest mistake of your life.

Lesson 2: Woman like proof, so don't tell us what you've done,show us instead.Or we'll just ignore it.

So, instead of letting them go. We fix another drink and this time is not so tasty...but simple enough. Just Asahi beer and raw egg. Haha...Well, it smell like...vomiters...Ewwww....

So, the guy left with no choice but to get one sip each. Haha...

Now, here come the bargaining part. Money!

Having 5 of us, we set a high budget--1000 bucks. Expecting some bargaining we plan to settle at 500. But this stingy Weng is not easy to fool...188,that all he have, take it or leave it. Leave it? It's your wife who we are talking about and the amount you can give it is 188? 188 devide by 5, it's only 30+ a person....Hello!

Lesson 3: Be generous, at least on your wedding days!

Seem like the bargaining doesn't work. And last solution for the guys---force in! Now you can see a few guys (don't know how many of them, definately more than the gals), pushing and pulling the girls forcing to go in to the room. God!!!! I should have jst wear my heels. At least I have something to protect myself. Instead, I got pulled, pushed, stepped and end up bruise, and bleeding. @#$%^&*()_....

Lesson 4: It's always war between guys and gals....

Finally I am tired, we are tired, and for Selina's sake, we settled at 288....Sigh...

The wedding night was a much better one. Without any of this violet scene appear.We are all peace and beautiful. To Selina and Weng, Happy Newly Wed! *muaks*

Girls in Masks....

Here's my man...

Brothers and sisters...

Join the loving couple...

It's a lovely evening with good food and lotsa laughter...A wedding that I totally enjoy myself. Too bad I have to leave early coz I am working tomorrow.

Anyway, just so glad that Ping is with me tonight...

Sometime there are moment you just wanna share with the special one...