What am I thinking????????????

Your last espression before leaving still bothers me. A simple goodbye kiss need a moment of hesitation, what does that mean? I am "familiar" with your explanation: You are working, in uniform. Well, if a simple goodbye kiss mean "unappropriate public behaviour" , I am not sure what's appropriate anymore. It bothers me when you hessitated, more so you comply as if you were force to. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..............